Wow. I can't believe it's summer, that July is just around the corner.
I turn 29 on July 5th. The Winnipeg Folk Festival is July 6 - 9th. Last year's folk festival was one of the high points
of the last year (or more).
Last year at this time I was unemployed, my savings was running out, I was depressed.
And then I went to a science fiction convention where I met someone who became
a good friend, fast. Then I was kidnapped (essentially) and taken to Winnipeg
even though I had every excuse in the book for why I couldn't go. And, amazingly (to me at the time), I had fun. Big fun. And made new friends, there, too. And
got to know people better. And returned to Minnesota feeling energized and
like a lot of things were possible which was quite a switch from where I'd been.
I have a job that's close to home, where I work with cool people, where I have a cool boss, where I'm encouraged
to learn some new stuff when I get a chance.
I'm in a different apartment now, one that I actually like (a lot) and which
has room for me and my stuff (even if it does eat half my income). I've
more friends, I've gotten to know people better, I've reconnected with
some old friends.
Some might think then I've no reason to be depressed, but depression
doesn't require reasons (alas). And, of course, there's a lot more going
on or not going on in my life that I'm not talking about here.
But just noticing these things, facing these things, makes
me feel a little better. I'm trying not to focus on the Other Stuff that
gets me down, but to be thankful for the progress I've made, the friends I've made (especially). I'm not as alone as I was before, no matter how it may seem.
posted at 5:09 PM Central Time
I'm feeling better than I have been in a while, though I'm still more under the weather than not, at times. But I'm getting to work and I'm able to concentrate better and I've actually felt like leaving the house to Do Stuff lately. Progress, I hope.
I can't properly express how much the emails I've received have meant to me. I'm behind on replying to them, but I will reply eventually. Knowing people are reading means a lot. Hearing from folks who've been there, helps. I'm humbled by the fact that folks have taken the time to write. Thank you.
posted at 4:07 PM Central Time